i strive for...

a better looking body. im tired of looking at myself as the "fat" girl. i want to lose DRAMATICCCCCCC weight by 4 months. thats basically when summer starts and long is having his prom around that time. i wanna finally look good in a dress and not stress out about how everyone will think i look or if im fat to them or not. my goal is to lose about 15 pounds a month. i think thats do-able. i will have to get on the elliptical EVERYDAY well hmm maybe not weekends. ill just do some workouts in my room for those days. Plus i have to watch what i eattt. ill eat a fruit every morning with some pills and water OR tea and then when i come home ill drink some tea or just water depends what i drank when i went to school. oh and munch on 5 little meals a day. i think?

routine:
wakeup
drink pills
water/tea
1 fruit
home
elliptical for 30 minutes or more
munch on another fruit
waterrrrrrr
elliptical for another 30 mins or more
waterrrrrrr
hw
nap
more hw
sleep

goal weight :110-115 pounds
current weight: 160 pounds

im gonna start tomorrow! IM REALLYYYYYY SERIOUSSSS ABOUT THIS. i wanna change. i wanna be that hot girl of HIS dreams. i wanna be the pretty child not the fat one. i want to gain more self confidence. i wanna be seen as gorgeous beautiful sexy not just cute -_-. i wanna be able to go to the store and look around and not worry about whether or not it might not fit around my arms or if itll make me look bigger or fatter. i wanna wear whatever clothes i think look cute on the hanger and have it STILL look cute on my body. i dont want to feel ashame to go to longs family parties and think that everyones looking at me thinking why is he dating her.i dont want to feel like longs ashame of dating me. i dont want to keep hiding my body with sweaters longs sleeves cardigans jackets. i wanna wear a tank top a short sleeve shirt lingerie for long and not worry about what everyone thinks nad how my body looks. i really wanna change. i wanna see the pounds melt off the clothes fitting and getting looser. i wanna hear the compliments people give saying how im looking good. i wanna be happy again. i want the body that would make both me and long happy. i want more self confidence.